aquasphyxia

Drowning. Can't say that was the way I thought it'd all end. Not that I imagined going out in some semi-literal blaze of glory, walking through an inferno to save a bus full of cancer-ridden orphans before striking an heroic pose for the cameras and collapsing in a triumphant heap of death. I'm arrogant, but not that much.

I more figured a quiet, somewhat dull end. In bed. Alone.

Pathetic I know, but death can be such a pain. For the dying obviously, whether it's a heart that suddenly stops beating, causing searing pain firing off around the body like being stabbed with hot skewers; or actually being stabbed with hot skewers. And of course for those left behind. You spend a lifetime, however long or short, building up a gaggle of acquaintances, most of whom are mildly saddened by your passing, but then there's those who love you. Not "yeah love ya babes" bullshit, but the ones that have a deep-set attachment to you, and once you are gone they are incomplete and never truly the same again. It's true that they are the ones who suffer the most, because their pain is continual, whereas after the searing skewer stabs are finished, that's you done.

(Maybe you believe otherwise, but let's face it, you're not going to affect my opinion on 'life after death', it's a wee tad too late. You know, what with me drowning and all.)

What I'm trying to say is, it's best for it all to end simply. Just going to bed one evening, and never waking up. Hopefully it's not too long before someone finds you.

But not drowning. That's not gonna go unnoticed. It's not your run of the mill, stick on a tag and chuck 'em in the incinerator kind of death. You know that in a few days from now I'll being lying on a cold sheet of metal, with some old beardy guy carefully plucking out my organs one-by-one, weighing them whilst saying latin words into a dictaphone before going home to snort some coke and bang a prostitute, anything to drown out the stench of death. No pun intended. Plus, drowning makes the papers. Local anyway.

At least some cool last words would have been nice. Something to leave a positive lasting memory, rather than "I promise mummy, I'll stay in the shallow end".